Jan 07, She did not want to go. She was afraid of what she would find and what it would mean to their relationship. She shares her story. Recently, I had a miracle happen in my life. I am in a new relationship. My boyfriend suggested that we get tested so that we are sure of our status. I was not comfortable with the idea, but I did not want to raise any suspicion by hesitating. We agreed to go to Nyango Clinic. That morning; I awoke at am and prayed to God to be with me during the testing.
When I got the call reminding me about the test, I panicked, breathing fast. I was afraid of what would happen should the results turn out positive. It felt like my life was about to end. For some reason, there was not a moment I thought the results would be negative. Just the thought of it got my heart pounding so fast I could hear it in my ears.
On our way to the clinic, as we sat in the taxi, I started thinking about all my ex-boyfriends. When I turned to look at my boyfriend, he was very calm. I wondered what would become of us if it turned out that I was HIVpositive. Just the thought of it almost drew a tear. He asked me whether I was fine because I was really quiet. He had no idea that I was regretting why I ever dated him. I could not imagine myself single again if my boyfriend found out that I was HIVpositive.
I wished for the traffic jam to delay our arrival at the clinic until the doctor had left. Unfortunately, it seemed like the shortest journey I had ever made. At the clinic, the skinny doctor looked relaxed. He showed no signs of having any other appointment. I am always quite the talker, but on that day, the HIV test had me well subdued.
When the doctor welcomed us into his office for counselling, I felt my heart jumping out of my chest. I was scared to death. He asked us so many questions about HIV; whether it was the first time we were taking the test. My boyfriend replied that he had done one four months back. I said I had also done one 12 months earlier. Of course that was a lie; it was the first time in all my life on this earth that I was taking the test.
